#literally stop making this man sad

[livelaughghoul]

I know fuck all about f1 (I’m learning, bear with me) but what I do know is that if anyone makes Logan Sargeant feel bad, I will go fucking feral.

[iniyaas]

TBH, I am wondering if soccer is his true calling, after all.

Say, (off the top of my head) compared to Isagi who watched Noel Noa growing up, loved football, and wanted to become a striker? or even Sae, who been playing soccer with the dream to go pro since young? Chigiri, Reo, even Ness? He was top in his games through school and that's why he wanted to try out at Basmun. iirc, except for Hiori, most of the blue lockers had a dream to pursue soccer as a profession, right?

But Kaiser picked up professional football, cuz, well .... that was the only way he could be bailed out of prison? He has been playing soccer only for the last 4 years. The way he describes his initial days at Basmun, it's as if only after hitting those guys, he got to know that soccer is a team sport of 11 players. Similar to Nagi, but Kaiser is still a bit different from Nagi,

Looking at his profile:

unlike Nagi, I imagine Kaiser would have opened himself to any kind of profession without external stimulus, as long as it earns him money. He wants to explore human behavior, connections and psychology. He seems interested in meeting new people (but, ofc, study them under the microscope and never open up to anyone himself)

and outside of his resident-nuisance mask, he seems more of a quiet observant introvert who likes reading books. Philosophy and psychology, yes; but I feel he likes reading anything with human characters; he wants to know more of other's thoughts and outlook of the world, and so.

Really.

He could have become anything if given a chance. Yes, his first "gift" to himself was his ball, and his only company throughout childhood. And yes, his 'identity' was born when his ball was attacked.

But this doesn't mean his calling was particularly for soccer.

Because. What arose in his heart atm was simply the desperate desire to 'protect' his only 'friend', his 'fellow piece of shit' from getting 'hurt'. Michael was used to getting abused, but the moment he saw his 'friend' might get hurt, he lost his shit. He would have reacted the same way if it was another toy, or for a younger sibling he doted on, or if he had a human friend whom he really adored.

(Of course, Kaiser being Kaiser, understood the birth of his identity differently, though.

He thinks he got his first impulse of pleasure from kicking the cops, and not from the instinct of 'protecting his friend'-- from despair of others, and not from love of his own heart)

but I digress.

What I am saying is that I can see him fitting in any kind of profession. Going to college? Becoming a writer? Method Acting? Lawyer? Heck, he can go to managerial heights in corporate and overthrow governments? Like anything!

Nothing in his profile reflects a strong calling for soccer in particular. Just an observation.

[cluescorner]

Long Post about Savage Opress because I am Normal

Savage Opress, you are everything.

You are at your strongest when you are fighting to protect the people you love. You had to participate in a battle royale and subjected yourself to a fate worse than death in order to protect your brother. You were forced to kill the brother you fought so hard to protect, your last words to him as he begged for his life were 'You make (me) weak'.

You are Frankenstein's monster, a kinslayer. You just have to live with that. Your mistress isn't giving you a choice in the matter.

You were placed under the control of a cruel master/mistress twice in the span of like a week. You were forced to betray your master and (under your mistress's orders) you killed two jedi, making you an enemy of the two most powerful entities in the galaxy. You made these enemies against your own will. You were lightning spammed and abused to the point that you were able to break free of your mistress's control.

You are then attacked by these two random jedi you have never met. They seem intent on bringing you in. They stand besides each other and fight to protect each other. You are reminded of how you did the same for your own brother. You killed that brother.

You run to the only home you've ever known, the same home that treated you as lesser-than and transformed you into what you are now. Your home is destroyed, all of your sisters are dead. You are upset by this. They were the cause of your suffering, but they were still kin.

You are told that you have a remaining brother, one who can make you strong enough to protect yourself. You decide to travel across the galaxy to find him. You killed your last brother, you will do anything for this one.

You seem to create trouble everywhere you are now. You are now incapable of solving problems without violence, so violence is what you become. You become hatred. You had love once, but everything that you loved is dead. Except for your remaining brother. You do whatever you must to find him.

You find your brother. Your brother is delirious and half-dead, but he is your brother and you found him. You can fix this. Your brother sees you too, or at least he sometimes does. You are a reflection of him, of what he was meant to be. You are strong and powerful. Your brother is not anymore, but he will be soon.

Your mother, the same woman who took you and warped you into a monster (that is what everybody calls you now), fixes your brother. Your brother grabs your face and twists it, painfully examining your every pore. You don't begrudge him this. You have done the same to it. Your face isn't yours, but it is the only face you have.

Your brother screams for vengeance against Kenobi, he must have revenge. You must stand by your brother, he is all that is left. You embark on a quest of vengeance against a man you only briefly met.

You become everything your brother needs you to be. You are his protector, his sword, his second-in-command. You have love again and you will do anything to keep it this time.

Your brother is a terrible person. Your brother will massacre a village for the sake of getting Kenobi's attention. Your living brother is nothing like the one you killed. You aren't sure this is a good thing.

Your brother lures Kenobi to the village and you both capture him. Your mistress shows up and immediately sets about belittling you. You are the monster she and your mother created. You are not her thrall anymore, you can fight her now. You do exactly that.

Your mistress and Kenobi retreat, your brother chooses to bide his time. You will wait with him.

Your brother and you infiltrate a ship, finding a fortune of credits. You are happy with this, you have never seen this much money in your life. Your brother's only fortune is the downfall of Kenobi.

Your brother calls you apprentice, decides that is what your relationship is now. You don't see the need for dominance, you are brothers after all. Your brother disagrees and you will subject yourself to this for your brother's sake. You are a reflection of him, of all his past flaws. You are devoted to those you love and able to feel things other than vindictive glee or hatred. Your brother is not anymore, he might never be again.

You think your brother is incapable of love. You love him all the same.

You and your brother next run into Kenobi with another Jedi Master. You do not know her name nor anything about her. You kill her, goring her with your (far larger than they should be) horns and running her through with your lightsaber. Your master is not forcing your hand this time, you can finally choose to make an enemy of the Jedi. You would have been their enemy either way, but the false choice is comforting regardless.

You and your brother corner Kenobi. You think for a moment that you have gotten the upper-hand, then Kenobi cuts your arm off. Your body leaks green magic. Your mother's magic still holds power over you even after everything. You wish it didn't.

Your brother shoves Kenobi away from you and decides to retreat. You aren't sure if this is a sign of affection towards you or if this is a strategic move. Your brother speaks as if it's the latter. You see no reason to believe otherwise.

You manage to escape, but are left adrift in space. You are freezing and slowly running out of oxygen. Your home was warm and full of breatheable air. You are alone with only a brother who calls you 'apprentice' for company. Your home was filled with brothers who called you by your name or by 'brother'. You are alive. Your home and brothers are dead.

You next wake up in an unfamiliar place. You smash all the equipment around you. You are now incapable of solving problems without violence, so violence is what you have become. Your brother informs you that his plans have changed, and now you two will be working with Deathwatch. You have no idea what Deathwatch is or who your brother just made a deal with. You will follow him regardless.

You stand up and hit your head on the lamp above you. You were supposed to be shorter than you are now. Your body is wrong. You look in the mirror and you are not yourself. Your body isn't yours, but it is the only body you have.

Your brother takes over Mandalore. You watch as your brother marches Kenobi into the throne room and prepares to execute the Duchess of this planet.

Kenobi offers sympathy. Kenobi recognizes that your brother never had a choice in joining the dark side. Kenobi had gone to your village and seen what it is like for the nightbrothers. Kenobi, despite everything, is trying to be kind.

You hear your story in Kenobi's words. You never had a choice in any of this. You never stood a chance. Your body isn't yours, your mind has been warped and twisted into serving the goals of another. You only wanted to protect your brother.

Your brother kills the love of Kenobi's life. Your brother has stripped himself and you of any possible chance to take the olive branch Kenobi was extending. You ask if you should kill Kenobi now. You know that stewing in grief and guilt can be a terrible fate. Your brother decides to keep him imprisoned. Your brother is counting on the Kenobi stewing in his grief and guilt. Your brother wants to drag out his suffering for as long as possible.

Your brother is in charge for less than a rotation. Your brother panics and bows before a withered old man, calling him 'master'. Your brother lies and fawns to his master. Your brother's master does not care.

You have never met this man before. You have no reason to fight him. Your brother is terrified of him. Your brother grovels before nobody, but he bows before this man. You don't have to do this.

Your brother needs you. You draw your weapon.

You manage to get a hit in on your brother's master. You are one of very few in the galaxy who can say that. You are at your strongest when you are fighting to protect the people you love.

You are stabbed in both your hearts. Your efforts to protect your brother, your pain and suffering, your love and affection, you, Savage Opress, you don't matter. You didn't know it, but you were fighting the most powerful being in the galaxy.

You never had a choice. You never stood a chance.

You die thinking you were unworthy of your brother. Your brother never said or did anything to make you think otherwise. You die calling yourself apprentice, that is the relationship your brother wanted. Your brother holds your hand as you die, it is trembling. You aren't sure if it is from grief or hatred. You decide it must be the latter. Your brother is only capable of hatred.

You knew your brother was incapable of love. You loved him all the same.

You don't know that you might have been the only thing your brother cared about besides his vengeance. You don't know that when you are unconcious he calls you by your name, he calls you brother. You don't know that he nearly killed the Death Watch soldiers, but stopped when they threatened you. You couldn't know. Your brother never told you.

You don't know that he uses his grief as fuel for his duel with Sidious. You don't know that he switches his ire away from Kenobi and decides that his former master is a more pressing target of his hatred You don't know that he spends the rest of his days trying to find a new apprentice to fill the hole you left and that it never works. You will never know. You are dead.

You died realizing you were nothing like your brother. You never were. Your body shrinks down, you finally look like yourself again. You can't be happy about this. You can't take relief in the fact that all the magic which ruined your life has been dispelled. You can't feel anything. You are dead.

You are right. You are nothing like Darth Maul. Your brother is motivated by hatred, you are motivated by love. Your brother will die having found peace, you died having found nothing but pain and grief and yet more pain.

You are my favorite magical girl and you have suffered so much more than Jesus.

[autopsytableromance]

Evan kelmp man that you are ……………..

[grossillygirl]

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[kaeyapilled]

i still feel abnormal about kaeyas adventure to sumeru as a child btw. he tells us about it in this lighthearted "haha look how silly i was as a kid ^^" way (because god forbid he allows one ounce of vulnerability in any situation ever) but tbh its just tremendously sad. to me

[im-okay-mj]

So are we thinking that Astarion gave Cazador the biggest attitude for 200 years straight or what

[simcardiac-arrested]

i don’t think we’re ever getting out of the “we’re just friends” “oh yeah those characters are such good friends (sarcasm)” “they’re not friends they’re gay” etc etc hole. we’re never getting out of that hole

[lovingaeth]

god bless and protect queer elders

[the-acid-pear]

no comment this simply made me really sad

[rawliverandgoronspice]

hmmm getting hit by another little "being heartbroken about tp ganondorf" moment :)

[otome-dissection]

yakuza 0 majima they could never make me hate you

[lethalitisms]

CANON POINT UPDATE PT 1: BEYOND VENOM

It's terrifying to think about. The whole world, resting on their shoulders. Eddie is just a man. Even with his symbiote, underneath it all, he is just a man. What makes him think he can face God?

The voices haunt him deeply. Sometimes, they get so loud he can't hear his other underneath all the noise. Like it's drowning, trapped within it. He knows the feeling. Eddie interlaces the fingers of both his hands, one formed in the black-ichor substance of the symbiote that lives beneath his skin. How many times have they done this song and dance? Separating, hating, reuniting?

Building, destroying, the endless cycles of their lives. Forever bonded in more than just the physical. It's terrifying. Feels like only a week ago they were fighting villains-of-the-day and living paycheck to paycheck ( if they got one at all ). Now they're on the frontlines at the end of the world. Nobody should have to bear this weight, not even Eddie with his bottomless pit of sins to atone for.

He can't stop thinking about it. About his family now. They have a family now. His son, his symbiote spawn, his symbiote partner, and his wife. God, his wife. Is that what she is, now? Is he allowed to call her that?

WHAT'S UP GUYS ! Time for a canon point update! Lots of things have happened between then and . . . now. But there's also one more canon point udpate to come later, for development reasons. It's a pretty big leap between now and there, so I've decided to split it up a bit. For fun and for angst. And also that plot-points list is a bit long already as it is. The new canon point right now takes place during Beyond Venom #5, after the defeat of the alternate-verse Codex but before the little timeskip. There's a lot to go through, so bare with me here.

PLOT POINTS:

So, God is coming. Family, amiright? Knull, god of the symbiotes, is coming down to Earth and it's, uh, quite intense. Eddie and the symbiote have worked together to fuck him up big time, but it cooked the symbiote in the process. So, for a while, it lost all of its "light", so to speak. Its personality, its sense of self. Eddie was fucking devastated.

There's also a Carnage cult ( again ). Carnage was one of the first symbiote spawns, bonded to Cletus Kassidy, and they sort of wreaked a lot of havoc until they were shot up in space to die. This cult believes they can resurrect him . . .

Eddie and the symbiote have . . . another kid! Dylan! When Anne bonded to the symbiote that one time a very long time ago, the symbiote had been preparing to have another spawn. But since it was bonded to Eddie for some time before her already, it had a piece of him ( quite literally, his semen ) with it. And so, Dylan was conceived. Dylan believed he was Eddie's little brother for a bit, but the cat got out of the bag at some point.

Here's where I do a little canon divergence. The Maker ( don't worry about him, some multiverse stuff ) helped Eddie to reveal that the symbiote was altering his memories. Well, I'm doing away with some of that because it doesn't really make a lot of sense, because I want to keep Mary Brock in the picture ( in a manner of speaking ). I am keeping is that the symbiote did manipulate him into believing that Mary died of cancer; she is still alive, and Eddie hasn't spoken to her in many years, which pokes a hole in the symbiote's false memories. How would he know if she or anybody that knew her wouldn't think to contact him?

Additionally, I'm omitting the car-crash backstory bits, because it removes a very pivotal moment in Eddie's life I feel matters to how I write him ( not by much if it's not brought up, mind you ). I used to want to keep it in, but the more I thought about it the less I liked it.

SPEAKING OF CATS. . . Sleeper ( the youngest of the symbrock family ) is back from their trip to space. Uh, they don't really touch on this much in the comics, but could be an interesting dynamic for anyone interested in bringing it up. Hehe.

So, the symbiote's "light" is back. But not without a few consequences. Carnage is also in there in his brain, so he went to a remote island he "vacationed" on a long time ago to take him down. He lost his left hand in the process, but he got back his symbiote! So that's a win.

You thought they completely killed Knull back there? Nuh-uh. Remember that Carnage cult I mentioned earlier? Well, they bonded Cletus' body with a piece of Knull, so he's kind of that god's prophet. And God is still gonna be heading over to earth and fucking shit up. Eddie and the symbiote are gonna have fun with nightmares for a while.

The symbiote curses for the first time. Not like it doesn't know what cursing is. It just never really found a reason to do so until they popped into an alternate dimension ( again ).

Eddie got to see Anne, his ex-wife, in an alternate dimension ( again, don't worry about it ). She'd died quite some time ago ( but she got the chance to divorce him before then ) and they somewhat rekindled the flame? It's complicated. The symbiote is chill with that.

He and the rest of the symbiote task force ( once again, don't worry about it ) have defeated Codex, the version of Dylan in this Anne's dimension, and things are all good. Now they gotta wait 5 years 1 year to get back to their home dimension . . .

And now they're here again.

NEW ABILITIES:

Spider-sense ( advanced ); the symbiote has inherited Spider-Man’s spider-sense, allowing it to feel when danger is imminent, and can warn the host ahead of time. However, after it’s reconnection to the Hive, it has been capable of sensing more things in the atmosphere. The symbiote can predict oncoming weather weeks or months in advance, as well as their general location, and whether or not someone is lying to them.

Filtered breathing; the symbiote has no need to breathe oxygen and is capable of storing it within their form. If a host is underwater, it can provide that oxygen directly into their lungs, allowing them to practically breathe underwater or avoid suffocation by other substances.

Dragon wings; the symbiote can allow its host to fly by sprouting dragon's wings.

Ok so these are ... less new abilities more like abilities I forgot to mention and were relevant a bit more in the new canon ( except for the dragon wings, that's new ).

OTHER CHANGES:

Eddie will seem a little more jumpy than usual. He's freaked out by the fact that the god of symbiotes kind of hates the hell out of him specifically.

Because he's Going Through It, Eddie will shave and cut his hair a lot less regularly. So sometimes he'll have longer hair, sometimes a beard or some scruff. The symbiote prefers him clean shaven. But, again, he's going through it rn.

During his time back on Venom Island ( yes, it's called that ), Eddie lost his left hand. So, when he's bonded with the symbiote, it will form a hand for him. When it's not, there's a stump that ends not too far from his wrist. I'm gonna go ahead and say I'm keeping it that way, even if they practically retcon this later, because I want him to feel pain.

Also? During his time battling with that Carnage manifestation, it carved big block letters into his back that reads "GOD IS COMING" and it never really gets mentioned again. But I'm saying it's staying there for a good long while, because that's a bit freaky.

I will not drop any threads currently ongoing! But I'll be more inclined to start new ones. Indie threads, we'll figure it out. Hold my hand and walk into the light with me . . . wait, is that an oncoming train? ( /j we can do whatever we want basically )

[afmis]

GUYS ITS ALMOST HALLOWEEN! IT’S FALL TIME! IT’S OCTOBER! THAT MEANS ITS C!BEEDUO TIME THEY’RE SO HALLOWEEN CODED ‼️ ITS THEIR SEASON

[the-maddened-hatter]

Man, depression really is like the "WhY arE yOu hiTtinG YoUrSelF?" of mental illness

[shmowder]

just need to vent about the Olympics